The conversation-yap yap has been delayed due to some unforeseen circumstances but here is another one of my experience with truth. The "conversation-yap yap" will be posted shortly.
I am very angry this time. There can be numerous reason to be angry. But can anger be justified? We all can argue with this the whole night and probably would go as long as this world ends. Even ram was angry with raavan and this anger made him kill him. Well can ram's anger be justified and should he be worshiped. Frankly speaking, i don't know the answer to this. But i can let you into some instances with me or sort of my experience which has made me angry time and again and i let the readers to decide am i justified with my anger.
1. I am angry at myself for not able to control something which could be controllable.I get angry when i am hungry. Ok now don't start to laugh reading this. I mean it. When i am hungry i cant just think, i need to fill up to start once again. I let this rage burn anything or anyone in front of me with words that could leave a scar for life but once cool down, i repent it. Do tell me readers is it justified to be angry, well for god's sake i cant control it. But sincere efforts have been taken towards it like a packet of biscuit beside me to cool me down.
2. I am angry coz i write it for you all to read it and give me some feedback. Feedback are important for person to improve and if my readers don't give me feedback then there is no use writing it. Its like walking in a circle without any sense of direction. Feedback would help me to improve and dont u want me to improve. I am not saying that you have to appreciate it but even if you dont tell me that you dont. Suggest me, anything you like to say talk back to me. But you all will say u love it so u are doing it why do you want us to be involved if that is so then that ends my anger then and there for you. But at least say me that.You all are being too scared to tell something at face, well i wont mind 'coz i can take it so u don't have to worry about me. Is it justified.....my anger
3. I am angry 'coz people have ditched me time n again and i am helpless with my condition. I have been humiliated, mutilated, hurt and scarred for life. But still i am shameless enough to refrain from telling them anything. Not because i am afraid to but situations do not permit me. I have lost my dignity and faith. It makes me angry that i cannot change it though i want it to. Justified or not......anger
4. I am angry coz when people needed me i was there for them but when i needed them, i stand alone. I did everything possible for them but when it was their turn, they just turned a blind eye. Well i can give an example to you all, by referring you to the film "tare zameen par" when amir khan tells the story of the African tribe, giving explicits to a tree to kill it, when the child's father tells him that they have given everything to their son. So, it is something like that. People do help me but also hurt me the same, so i am in a fix whether to hate them or appreciate them for their grace. I am angry 'coz i cant decide what to do between the above two things. Anger justified or not....
5. I am angry 'coz i am sick and tired of being good. I don't want to be a good person anymore. People take advantage of my simplicity and stab me hard. It sucks!! I want to be bad, real bad like the joker from dark knight. Tell me how many of you guys can joke on yourself, no need to answer me this but think about it. Its not that i don't enjoy the jokes cracked on me, i do, i swear i do (if no one cracks a joke on me, i don't feel good that day) but when i do it people get angry and stubborn (booby if u are reading this then its not for you). I am an emotional fool who can't see anyone in anguish or distress, and runs down to help them. Friends, God (if you believe) has given us two ears and one mouth so that, we can listen twice as much as we speak. But we all do the opposite. So i am angry that i cant become bad. Anger justified.......
6. I am angry 'coz i am a big liar, and i can lie with a straight face to convince people that i am saying the truth. Its the circumstances which forces one to lie but in my case the circumstances have been a bit too long, so with so much practice of lying i have become one expert in it. How much i try, truth eludes me. Lying has become a part and parcel of me and mind you, i come with this complete package. I am angry 'coz i am not able to stop lying. So anger at this justified or not......
Thus these were some of the reasons which has made me angry. Though i thought that i should not publish this, something inside me told me to do it. I don't know what. It was high time i gave a piece of my mind to others. Read it and comments are welcome..... Till then njoy!! reading it...........
